First some background. I've been using this iPad for a month. It seems that this provides me the sufficient computational needs so that I don't need any other computers at home. User experience is very satisfactory indeed and writing even longer texts is nice and easy as I have a separate keyboard (Logitech Ultrathin). My previous computer was a Windows laptop and as it broke I decided to try something completely different. At first I was about to buy a Win8 hybrid laptop (tablet+keyboard) but as they were sold out I chose iPad.
I've been using Facebook for 5 years and naturally I downloaded FB application for my iPad. A couple of days ago I noticed that Facebook asked me "What is on your mind?" Well, that is a serious question and as I love philosophy I started thinking seriously. What is on my mind?
At the present moment there are some perceptions of colours and shapes and with my conceptual mind I can refer to them as a "keyboard", "iPad", "cup of tea", "fingers dancing on the keyboard", "feeling the chair my body is sitting on", "feeling the table" etc. All these among many other things can be grasped within the conceptual mind.
But there is more in "me" or in "consciousness". I feel that my mind or my consciousness is not identical with its the contents. I can feel the "background" or the "space" within which the thoughts created by my conceptual mind arise. This means that the consciousness or "me" is more than the thoughts or feelings or sensations that arise. Actually the whole idea of individual or separate "me" or "self" or "I" is just a pattern of thought the conceptual mind loves to maintain. The ego identifies with the conceptual mind. It clings to it. The consciousness that is the "vessel" or "background" for all this is the real "me". This is a paradox because there is no "me" in the core of this being. "Me" or "I" is a concept that operates within the idea of duality; me - not me, I - not I etc. The pure consciousness beyond the conceptual mind is the true core of this being that you, dear reader, refer to as "gnothi seauton" and who sits here and writes these letters and words and sentences at this very moment.
So these thoughts were on my (conceptual) mind. These thoughts arised and were identified as I reflected the contents of this consciousness at this very moment. Now I sip some tea... wait a moment... Warm tea feels pleasant in my mouth. By the way, I wonder if it is really "my" mouth or is it more proper to say that it's a mouth that is an essential part of this body that this consciousness occupies? Anyway, it is very nice indeed to just sit here and enjoy the peace within. I hear some sounds, I hear the clock ticking. Actually I can hear two clocks. Second by second they both make a sound. These sounds don't mean anything. They're just sounds. Within the conceptual mind I can refer to them as "seconds" and "time is passing". But when I'm fully present here and now, time becomes irrelevant. Time is merely a convenient concept for reorganizing or memorizing things that someday were reality in the now or for planning things and ideas that are yet to come true in the now.
The only real reality (sic!) is the mysterious and miraculous now. Being present in the now somehow makes it possible to open a door that was and is always here within. Actually the door was always open, all I have to do is enter. I find myself in space within that is not comprehensible for the conceptual mind. Only some indirect sign posts or pointers can be said or written or thought about this core of my being. It appers to be nondual, timeless and eternal dimension of this being and the reality.
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